She Wonders

Published on 21 November 2024 at 15:38

Stumbling through this life always searching

Searching for ways to connect

To be seen

 

Always smiling and laughing

Telling jokes and singing silly songs

Eager to please others

 

Do you see how obedient I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

 

Navigating around the confusion

Confusion about what family is

To belong

 

Always there to wipe away the tears

Caring for others

Everyone else’s needs come before hers

 

Do you see how loving I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

 

Conquering life’s many obstacles

Obstacles even within her mind

To be worthy

 

Always the first to prove herself

Working hard to go above and beyond

Accomplishing so many goals 

 

Do you see how smart I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

 

Building the thick skin needed to survive

Survive this cruel and harsh world

To be independent

 

Always standing on her own two feet

Picking herself up

Each and every time she falls

 

Do you see how strong I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

 

Accepting that she’ll never be enough

Enough for them, for the world

To be loved

 

Always overthinking things

Struggling to trust

Not often letting others in

 

Do you see how lonely I am?

She wonders, but the silence is her answer

 

Sick of the neglect

Sick of the abuse

Sick of the silence

She turns and screams

Into the dark suffocating void

 

Hearing her words echo back….

 

I don’t need you! I am enough!

 

Only to grasp it for a moment 

Watching it slip through her fingers

Before the cycle of questioning begins again


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Cynthia Rose
12 days ago

I love you so much!!

Erzulie
12 days ago

Love it. Speaks our truth.

Karen Dodson
12 days ago

You are enough! I love you. 💜